Mental mumblings

I pledge allegiance to the Flag
of the United States of America,
and to the Republic for which it stands:
one Nation indivisible,
With Liberty and Justice for all.
---"Pledge of Allegiance" Circa. June 14, 1924 - June 14, 1954

Hey out there
To all who care
Who read this blog
Despite the fog
Welcome to my lair

ok that was a tad hokey but then no one is reading this anyway so why should i really give a flying fuck? i mean y'know i did this figuring that no one would care but i love to be proven wrong.
yea right
like that's going to happen
a little controversy would be cool. arguments? bring it on!
Are you a member of some weird cult or possibly some sort of pervert? I'd love to hear from you.
com'n or I'll start posting the results of stupid quizzes again

We're all gonna die!!!!!

And I will establish my covenant with you, neither shall all flesh be cut off any more by the waters of a flood; neither shall there any more be a flood to destroy the earth.
And God said, This is the token of the covenant which I make between me and you and every living creature that is with you, for perpetual generations:
I do set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a token of a covenant between me and the earth.
And it shall come to pass, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow shall be seen in the cloud:
And I will remember my covenant, which is between me and you and every living creature of all flesh; and the waters shall no more become a flood to destroy all flesh.
And the bow shall be in the cloud; and I will look upon it, that I may remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is upon the earth.
And God said unto Noah, This is the token of the covenant, which I have established between me and all flesh that is upon the earth.
--- Genesis, chapter 9 Verses 11-17

well..Here we go again
another "killer" hurricane...Though this time I think it for be fo' shizzle, as my eastside friends would say.
I didn't talk much about Katrina or the tragedies of the new Orleans peoples because..Truly..I was tired of the whining and the blame games and the unfounded accusations by people of questionable sanity
now however Rita is hitting a little closer to home
I grew up in Houston...Not to far from were Rita will make land fall and I think what will happen to all the friends I had in my childhood? I have talked about my childhood friends before but today I'm really worried. My grandma has evacuated to my aunts house in Fairfield, so she'll be ok. Hopefully her house, the house I've had so many of my childhood experiences in, weathers ok.
I haven't talked to Keri yet about it but on her blog she says her parents are staying for now. I do hope they're ok as well. The Bas's have been my alternate family for most of my younger years..I have often joked that Keri and P4 were the siblings I never wanted...But I digress
the hurricane is being tracked as maintaining at least a Cat 1 status on up into central Texas..Which is were I happen to live. And as can be predicted people are panicking .
My darling Pet, who works a corporate big box store that starts with a "W" said there was actual fights over bottled water and toilet paper...The truth is probably the worst well see is a lot of wind and rain..And maybe a power outage or two...Not much else.
oh well ...

All better..sorta

Windmill, Windmill for the land.
Turn forever hand in hand.
Take it all in on your stride.
It is sinking, falling down.
Love forever love is free.
Let's turn forever you and me.
Windmill, windmill for the land.
Is everybody in?
---Gorillaz, "Feel Good Inc."

ok folks the homicidal urges are gone...This is good. As for why I had them..I don't feel like story time right now.
I was looking over J-chan's blog and also Keri's and realize exactly how little I talk about my self..
am I humble?
am I shy?
do I think the government going to track me down and have me reeducated by the thought police? No... Nothing that creative.
I'm just lazy really...
lazy and tired.
I'll get to better stuff I promise..Might take awhile fer da brain pan to start workin' though.

I feel like killing someone

Pinhead: Temptation is illusion. But the time for trickery is past. In this game, we show ourselves as we really are.
Angelique: And what is that?
Pinhead: The beauty of suffering.
Angelique: You are no different from that beast who sucks the bones you throw to it!
Pinhead: [as he hooks into her flesh] And you, Princess? What are you?
--- Hellraiser: Bloodline

No, No one specific..And hopefully the reason for these feelings will simply pass.
I honestly don't feel like talking about it either.
But trust me..Tomorrow if things go bad...You know all about it and i'll be naming names...

Fever dreams and existential mumblings

1.) The hurricane that hit New Orleans and Mississippi and Alabama was an astonishing tragedy. The suffering and loss of life and peace of mind of the residents of those areas is acutely horrifying.
2.) George Bush did not cause the hurricane. Hurricanes have been happening for eons. George Bush did not create them or unleash this one.
3.) George Bush did not make this one worse than others. There have been far worse hurricanes than this before George Bush was born. ---Ben Stein in The American Spectator online 9/4/2005

I was sick yesterday..Had a fever of around 104 or so. This is usually when my brain starts going into over drive. I guess it's a bit like putting jet fuel in a Geo Metro.
a lot of strange thoughts crossed my mind. Most of them have faded leaving after images too bizarre to try and describe. But one thing did hit me though... Life is simply the act of dieing.
Kind of dark I know but anyone who knows me knows I am capable of far darker thought processes. One of my writing projects, an unfinished novel of sorts, one of many, is BDSM and D/s theamed..And not my only one. In the many hard drives I have rescued for the computers I own there are more short stories and snippits once I get the hard drive enclosure I've been eyeballing for th past few years I'll get them and maybe submit them to A.S.S.T.R. or Nifty.org.
*shrugs*
In any case I guess that's it for now...My brain is tired

The perfect storm

One of the first things Mom said to me on the phone this afternoon was, “You’ve never been to New Orleans, have you?” I’m the only one in the family who has never been. Her next words were, “This will probably be the end of the city as we know it.”
No flippant comments about apocalypses will be forthcoming.
I grew up with hurricanes, but this one, this Katrina, beats all the ones I ever knew or saw or tracked on our refridgerator door.
All my hopes are for a low loss of life; alas it appears that the loss of beauty and history cannot be stopped.---from Keri's Blog, "Brain Flotsam"August 28th, 2005.

In this post I will fail to mention my crappy car or how sorry my life is .There's a reason for that, there are others that are worse off than me. Yes. I'm talking Katrina. Just because everyone else is talking about her doesn't mean I shouldn't either. Though I have noticed many things about this particular tragedy.
mostly its the lack of comment from the U.N and Europe. J-chan put it much better than I ever could in his blog. he much much better at communication than I.
but I digress.
the others I've heard is the people blaming the Governor others are blaming global warming (which is,of course, all our fault) an still others blaming the Army Corps of Engineers.
to top it off there are looters.
Boortz has a cute little poll as what should be done with the looters, I will keep my answer to my self, instead I will tell you that one of these Theiving Assholes is quoted as saying, "To be honest with you, people who are oppressed all their lives, man, it's an opportunity to get back at society."
hmm huh..GET BACK AT society rather than GIVE BACK TO society Lovely, lovely people in the human race yes?
What are my suggestions? I wish I had one other than pray in whatever way your faith teaches and give where you can.
Did I ever mention I was less than 10 Miles away when the Jarrell tornado of '97 hit? I lost family and friends in that storm
so I feel for those who have lost so much in New Orleans. To them I say, Be thankful you are alive. Be glad you have what family and friends you still have. Mourn those you have lost, but not so much that it clouds the rest of your existence.
Remember the happy times.
I say this to all that bother to read this...I am here. Post a response or email me... I will be glad to talk. I mean it.